Woke up earlier than I would have liked, peed in a cup right away and dipped a pregnancy test in for the required time. Grabbed my latte while the computer booted up, then read the results. Faint line. Pregnant. Sent a message to Daniel letting him know I’d gotten a positive and that I am definitely pregnant. Not that I had any doubts.
Went to the store to grab a few things, including more pregnancy tests. It’s kind of an obsession at this point, testing every morning until the line is no longer faint. Part of it is kinda making sure my hcg levels rise normally, because if they don’t it could be an ectopic pregnancy.
Came home and got on Aura Kingdom and did the minimal daily stuff. Then took care of my free book & paid emails, since they’d all come in by then. Spent quite a bit of time talking to one of my old friends as well. I haven’t talked to Diane much in years, but we picked up right where we left off and I can tell she’s one of those true friends.
Dave took Casey fishing, I was happy for that. I never thought Dave would do anything like that with him, and it made me glad that they were getting to do something like that together.
At one point, realization hit me like a ton of bricks. I’d lost Daniel. He thought I lied to him about my surgeries. That I was lying when I told him I did not purposefully try and get pregnant. He didn’t want another kid. I’d never have him again, never hear him say those sweet words “I love you” again. And it killed me, I was ugly crying for hours.
I’d sent Daniel a message about my realization, and he basically told me to stop because he was busy trying to move and incredibly stressed out by this. As if I’m not stressed out by it! What am I going to do? I have nowhere to go, no job, no money. This was not supposed to happen!
Thankfully, I had composed myself by the time the boys got home from fishing. They’d gone to the grocery store as well, giving me extra time to get it together.
I was just getting ready to launch Blade & Soul around 6 in the evening, to play around on it for a bit, when I got a message from Daniel, he wanted me to come over right away. It was a booty call, but like a fool I rushed over. Afterward he held me for a while and I cried silently in his arms. After I’d been there about an hour, I got ready to leave. He said he’d call me later, like an actual phone call.
Got home and got on Blade & Soul, tried to join a party for spider farming but nobody was recruiting so I logged back off and got on Portal Knights instead. I got on my newest character, the Rogue Elf, to work on leveling her since Cyn didn’t seem too interested in getting on and leveling our mains.
Cyn ended up getting on anyway, but wasn’t really doing anything and eventually logged back off. I logged off as well, not really interested in playing anymore at that point. What I wanted to do was work on our mains, continue progression.
Got Casey ready for bed around then anyway, and then Cyn and I agreed we’d get on my oldest world and use the quests there to level our mains up. But while I was busy questing, she was doing nothing again. She thought we were getting on the main world to level our mains, despite me having told her we were getting on the older world to do it. Once we’d sorted that out, she worked on the quests with me a bit.
It was getting late and Daniel still hadn’t called. I sent him a message asking if he thought it’d be much longer as it was getting late, and he messaged back that he’d fallen asleep while chatting with his mom and that he’d call me in the morning instead. I was already in the process of shutting down the computer anyway, so I finished that and went to bed.