I was able to sleep in a little while since there would be no school. I got up and got some coffee while the computer booted, then played around on Facebook until my free book & paid emails came in. I took care of those, then spent most of the day just looking at Facebook.
I did get on ArcheAge to check things and used some labor to make tax certificates to prepay taxes on the house. I didn’t bother doing any gardening because I didn’t think I would be actively playing any time soon. I’m not sure why I’ve stopped playing, other than that it got lonely without friends to play with. I did need a bit of a break and enjoyed Fallout for a while, but I just haven’t been able to get back into it.
My carpal tunnel was bothering me really bad in my right hand. Despite being left-handed, I still use my right hand for a lot of things, including working with the mouse when I’m on the computer. I didn’t think I’d be able to get any work in because of it.
I logged onto AFF to see if Brad was on, not really knowing how it would affect me if I ever did actually see him online when I checked. One time in the afternoon he was on, and I felt sucker-punched. At least he’d looked at my profile when he was on, but I wasn’t sure what to make of the fact that he’d been online in the first place. I need to stop this overthinking though and just enjoy things in the moment. Yes, I will need to confess my feelings sooner rather than later. I can’t go through the same crap I went through with Daniel. I waited 3 months to tell him how I felt, and then spent another 9 trying to get what I wanted only to be let down and horribly betrayed in the end. But, I don’t want to completely scare him off by confessing my feelings after we’ve only seen each other twice.
I sent him a message letting him know I wanted to see him. Surprisingly, I got a message back within an hour. Unfortunately, it was to let me know he was hanging out with a buddy. I told him to let me know if he freed up at night and went about my day.
I should point out that I’ve noticed a pattern. It may fluctuate slightly since everything is still so new, but so far I hear from him every 3 days. This could mean, though, that I don’t hear from him again until Monday if he didn’t free up later at night because he was with a friend. I hope that would not be the case, but sadly it seems he prefers solitude more than socialization in general.
I finally decided to get some work done, even though my wrist was bugging me. I tried using a stylus on the computer screen instead of the mouse but ended up favoring the mouse anyway. At least I wore a brace to stabilize my wrist.
I got a couple hours of work in before it was time to start getting Casey ready for bed. Once he was tucked in, I watched a movie on Netflix called “After.” It was a pretty good movie. Once it was done, I went to bed. I hadn’t heard any more from Brad, despite having sent him a couple more messages to see if he’d freed up.
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