Hey…

Hey everyone. I know I haven’t updated in a while.

Things are pretty crazy in my life right now. We had to give up insurance several months ago, and my medications cost about $500 a month, so we were having to pay more and more on credit cards, and now we’re $12,000 in debt, and we don’t have enough money to eat next week. We have no available credit, and no money in the bank. Dave got laid off from the job that moved us here in January, but is hoping to start another job within the next week or so. I haven’t been able to find a job here yet, which is wearing us even thinner. When I say we don’t have enough money to eat next week, that’s not an exaggeration. The only money we have in the bank is just enough for Dave to get gas in his truck one more time. We don’t even have money to pay our electric bill or cable/internet bill. As of tomorrow, I’ll be driving on expired tags, because we don’t have the money to pay for that. Yet, we don’t have the money to pay any fines for driving on expired tags, but there’s no choice in the matter. I had tried to sell things on eBay, but what I got out of that was enough to buy us groceries several weeks ago. There’s nothing else I can sell on eBay or anywhere else, and even if I could, it wouldn’t be enough money in enough time. Nothing will give us enough money in enough time. I can’t see any way out of this, and I’m going crazy with stress. It’s only a matter of time before we’re out on the street, with nothing. I don’t know how we’re even going to feed our animals in the next week or so… and they’re like our children. I’ve about had more than what I could ever handle. I don’t know what to do. My family and friends can’t help us out, for various reasons. My parents have double mortgage parents until they sell their house in several months, so they don’t have anything to give us. How can I just ask someone for money anyway? That’s not a very feasible idea. I don’t know what to do, other than pray for a miracle. But, even miracles take time, and we’re running out. Rent is due tomorrow, and that’s the only bill we can afford to pay. That expense has already been accounted for, though… which is another reason we have no money. I’m at a loss… I’m really close to just giving up on everything… because I really can’t take this anymore.

Needless to say, my LJ is no longer a paid account. That would have been silly…